Leaf In The WInd

Wow that week went quick! It's been another busy week! Been doing loads of stuff (again)!

Gym: was a failure last week in one sense, as only went to the gym last Tuesday, but spent a good 3 hours there or something ridonculous! Did loads of weights, full body, but not a lot of cardio! Went gym again today, was only there for about an hour, no more than hour and a half, but did lots of cardio :) No other workouts to report, but life has been crazy.... Hopefully that will count?? Lol

My usual gym selfie

Weight loss: So annoyed! Only lost half, so back to where I was the week before I gained 3lbs...... So only half to go until I'm at my 1st half award..... Again..... You watch me stay the same tomorrow!!! Sod's law!!! Mhhhrrrrrr.....

Food & Drink: Don't feel like it was an amazingly good week for food, as need to restock the cupboards a bit again x_X lol not sure what the damage will be, but then I have been incredibly busy this week! Lots of running around....

Writing: Again, not much to report here! But have been very busy sorting out Scentsy basket trials for people again! And also started my vlog as you may have seen the other night....? Hehehe

Sprog's Adventures: We've had some lovely times this week! Wednesday, we went to go visit my friend from uni who lives in Leicester! We didn't get back until 9.30!!! Needless to say, we were late to nursery the next morning..... I also skipped the gym as I was so knackered! This was also because when we got home and I was settling sprog in to bed, I saw that the spider that had been roaming our lounge and kitchen ceilings the last week or so had managed to find its way in to our bedroom, and decided to walk round the wall to above the head of the bed..... I tried to smack it with my shoe, it fell down and I couldn't find it!!!!! *sobs hysterically!!!* The little bugger reappeared on the opposite wall again, so I made sure I got it properly this time... It now serves as a warning to other spiders..... 

 Train selfie! 

 Was a verrrryyyyy long day! I'm surprised she didn't crash before this!

 Sprog enjoying the hot dog she shared with Aunty J at Duck Pond Market

Sprog also had a wonderful time with her dad last week when they went to the Science Museum! Apparently she REALLY didn't want to leave hehehe Saturday, Sprog came with me to pick up a basket from a lady we met through Slimming World, and we ended up spending the rest of the afternoon there! She also twisted my arm in to letting her bring her scooter! *sigh* she really enjoyed herself, especially as I ended up pulling her along on it, and a few times even stood on the back and propelled us both along xD lol that was the rest of my work out the for week haha

 Sprog feeding a goose! 

 Feeding these guys! We were all loving it!

Sunday was a marvelous day as we went to Black Park with Little Nanny, Aunty J and Loki! The Duck Pond Market was also there including with their petting farm! Needless to say I was in my element :') 

Mummy's Adventures: I don't feel like I have too much to report about me this time, as I think I've already said it lol I really enjoyed cuddling all the animals and stuff, and it's stirred a minor passion in me to work with animals again, but still don't know what I want to or ought to do! There's vet nursing I guess, or maybe I could open up a pet shop or something? I don't know Dx I've been so lazy over the weekend as well, well.... Friday I did a big clean up, well didn't take much, but by Saturday morning, it was an absolute tip :( I hate cleaning when it just goes straight back to being messy again :( Lullsbud, I honestly don't know how you do what you do, and all other domestic goddesses out there!!! I'm a domestic engineer, not a technician, I plan what needs to be done and tell people to do it and how xD hahaha still, got baskets in over the weekend, and back out again for trials, one today and one tomorrow :)

Sunday evening saw (pardon the pun.....) me suffer the most horrendous pain since childbirth! Sprog somehow managed to get her finger and nail on my eyeball!!!! :'( it has only just today stopped hurting, thank god!!! But the last 48 hours have been nothing more than painful and uncomfortable!!!

My eye!!!! My poor beautiful eye!!!! Lol!!!

Other Stuff: I sent off my Channel Mum vlog audition video on Saturday night! If you haven't already seen it, please give it a watch and if you can, let me know what you think! :D https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LW7NVQD4fh8 

Lullsbud also sent her audition vlog too :D hope she doesn't kill me for sharing.... Hehehe but what's not to love??!? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4olqLz0xdo4

Still no homework done for make up! Oh lorrrddd hehehe not really sure I can be bothered now though..... Doesn't feel like I'm doing a real course to be honest :\ I reiterate: I still don't know what I want to do in life! 

We had our hair cut on Thursday! I then dyed my roots :)

Well that's all for now! It's very late, and I'm very tired, and need to be up early for nursery tomorrow!

Nighty night all!!!

xXx

 

Day 941: Vlog 1

The Snowball Effect.....

Well gosh darn! 
Firstly, I'm very sorry as yet again I've left it so long to post! BUT I do still have very good reason! I'm not gonna lie, the last 3 weeks have been crazy busy! So yet again, I shall continue in the same fashion!

Gym: I didn't quite meet my target in the first week (w/c 6th-12th) of 3 work outs, as we ended up going to the New Forest with the rents for the day instead, which was nice! This last week (w/c 13th-19th) I was on target of 2 workouts as I stayed to IMAGE Therapy at Slimming World :) My fitness is markedly improving as I feel I am able to (and need to!) work harder and longer every time in order to feel like I'm working hard!

 Gym selfie! Arm day.... I hate arm days....

Weight loss: First week, I gained 3lbs, but it was Easter!!!! Plus I'd not long started working out, plus then it turned out to be Star Week anyways, so meh. I didn't care though, I felt amazing as I've been going to the gym and my clothes are feeling so much looser now :D Second week, I lost 2.5lbs, was happy, but it wasn't enough after the previous week..... Aiming to lose just 1lb at next weigh in to get my 1.5st award!!! It WILL be mine!!!
 
Food & Drink: Feel like I've been on an uphill struggle, trying to climb back on the wagon, but also feel like I'm getting there.... The struggle is in the form of indecision on what to make and eat for meals, not really fancying anything, and also slothism- I cba to cook and clean up! However, today seems to have been a little different, felt really good food wise today, getting food shopping in tends to help with this issue.... And I think having spent a week off not having to cook didn't help either....

This evening's nosh was the best I've made in 3 weeks! 7.5syns for Doritos and Dip with chilli chicken :D I'm a genius!!! Hehehe

Writing: Nothing to report here...... Been too busy (and maybe lazy....) to do writing.

Sprog's Adventures: Sprog has had lots of fun outdoors! She has spent time outdoors almost every day, until the last few days when the weather has turned a bit lame! She's enjoyed herself on her Tuesdays with her daddy, she's had loads of fun at nursery, and she's just generally having a whale of a time! :)

One of our days out- a park in town centre!

Mummy's Adventures: I have mostly been working out on Tuesdays and when Sprog is at nursery, plus trying to tackle housework, etc! However, as well as Sprog, my main focus recently has been absorbed by Scentsy! It has started going sooo so well recently! I posted a little pic in loads of locations all round Facebook, asking for product testers for Scentsy products, I was inundated! Literally! I had over 160 responses! I've since been trying to organise a waiting list and allocate Scentsy trial tester dates for everyone, it's absolute madness! I am also very excited as today I managed to get my first recruit, I have a very promising potential 2nd recruit, and maybe even a 3rd recruit..... We shall see.... :) hehe of course will keep you posted ^_^ From C's party, I just need to distribute 2 more orders, then I'm done for that order :D although I did majorly fudge up on one order..... I ordered the right warmer in the wrong fucking colour! So annoyed at myself :\ but luckily I managed to find another consultant who had the right colour and willing to swap, so now both the warmers are now in transit to each other with a courier, thank goodness! X_x I hope to receive the replacement warmer early this week!

This little thing is an absolute gold mine! :D

Other Stuff: Oh, I had to go Job Centre on Monday for one of those Work Focused Interviews, and I'm not gonna lie, the woman I spoke to had me seething for days afterwards! I left with a headache!!! She was incredibly unprofessional, had terrible customer service skills (including listening!!!), and was also rather patronising!!! She rang a lady to ask about recruitment at the new Asda store I applied to a few weeks earlier as I'd been rejected, and the first 5 minutes of the conversation was spent catching up!!!! THEN!!! Her mobile rang and she fucking answered it!!!! Cos her son was with a childminder and "he's her baby"!!! What about everyone else then? Eurgh!!!! Also, she told me the same information in a parrot like fashion 4 times, of which I'd already emphasised just as many times how on the ball I am, having spent several hours on EVERY recruitment agency website, and benefit calculator website out there, as well as going to loads of separate recruitment websites for the associated stores!!!!! Eeeeuuuurrrrggghhhhh!!!!!!! Breathe..... Just breathe..... Oh god I really got my self worked back up...... Breeaaatheee Sophieeeee.......

I still haven't done any Make Up coursework :S woops hehehe 

I have to send a 2-3 minute vlog clip to Channel Mum as part of my application by 27th April! :D as does Lullsbud

Ok I think that's all from me now, as the time is getting on, I'm knackered as we stayed at my lovely nanny's house last night! :) hehe I will endeavour to stay in better touch this time...... Hehehehe nighty night :) xxxx

 Bus cretins hehehe

Friday saw our first proper lazy day in 3 weeks! Was lush :)

Just A Quickie........

It has been a week since my last post, and my word has it been busy! I had forgotten that it has only been a week since my last post! I shall bullet point this post for ease of reading and writing...

Gym: I went to the gym twice, and the pool once! I took Wednesday as I was aching so much from Monday and also so that I could stay at SW meeting, went swimming Thursday, and Friday off as I was getting lots of things ready for C's Scentsy party.

Weight loss: I lost 2lbs this week! Hooray!!! Back in new numbers.... Again.... For the third time!!!!

Feeling fiiiiiine

Food and Drink: it's Easter........ Mhhhhrrrrr.......

Writing: haven't done much in the way of writing this week, been too busy again, but my friend B has read it and offered some very helpful suggestions to help me carry on!

Sprog's Adventures: Sprog has absolutely loved her first week at her new nursery, and the staff absolutely love her too, she's good as gold, polite, cheeky and a pleasure to work with! ^_^ She also had a wonderful time with her daddy, nana and grandad at their sleepover on Friday night! They also Skyped me before bed Friday evening which was lovely :') And they spoiled her rotten lol As you probably also know, it has been Easter weekend, so Sprog has been pumped full of chocolate by everyone, I am trying very very hard to limit her daily intake though! Her behaviour really changes after eating very sugary foods :\

Mummy's Adventures: Well, Monday and Tuesday, I felt like I smashed it at the gym, then Wednesday after SW, I still had nearly 2 hours left until I needed to pick Sprog up, so went for a nice Costa and chinwag with my friend, I shall refer to her here as Ni! Haha then picked Sprog up from nursery, bought some activity bits from Tesco, then Ni came round for pizza and dvd's. Thursday was a nice swim, then went to nanny's after nursery for dinner. Friday I dropped Sprog with her daddy, nana and grandad, felt weird leaving her that day as I knew I wasn't going to be picking her up the same day! But had to run around tidying, baking an excellent cake for C's Scentsy party, welcome my friend A, and then after the party, A and I got an Indian take away hehehe! We had a splendid-ish lay in Saturday til 9ish, enjoyed a slow lazy morning, lounging around before getting ready and going in to town for a Nando's x'D oh my this week sounds terrible for food hahaha Woopsie! Sunday we went to nanny's house again for the day and had a lovely Easter Sunday lunch, then after I got Sprog to bed, I had a couple of friends come round to watch a couple of DVDs! :D Today, we went to Big Nanny's house for the afternoon, before coming home to have a Chinese..... Oh my, I am definitely back on plan and in the gym tomorrow! Hehehehe

Guess the movie!!! I played the blondie one in my school show in 2005! :')

 In the car going to Nanny's house! I'm not in the driver's seat, the camera flipped the image!

Scentsy party: For my first proper party where I stand up and talk, it went really well! We managed to get £166 of orders so far, and still waiting on  a possible one or two more :) everyone seemed to really enjoy themselves, and hoping that I may get to book some more parties a bit further down the line :)

The Cake I made... Note "The Cake"!

 

My display for my party ^_^

Other stuff: Haven't done any work on the make up assignment yet, need to get some materials for it, like carbon paper.... No word from the Channel Mum vlog thing yet either..... Sprog and her daddy and fam also bought me a lovely little watering can planter with a little flowering plant (looks maybe shrubberyish....? Lol Ni) Hope I can care for it ok.... Hehe :) 

I think that just about touches upon everything in our week now :) I'm not looking forward to weigh in on Wednesday, but that's my own damn fault, and I will be smashing it up at the gym straight after I weigh, and I have no excuses for determining a good result the week after!!! Looking forward to Wednesday afternoon, Thursday, and Friday though! Doing lots of stuffs :)

Have a good week everyone!$ Don't forget to +1 or share! :) xXx

*Molly Weasley's voice* Where HAVE You Been???!?!?!

Ermergerdddd it's been over a month since I updated!!! D= It has been absolutely mental oriental though! I've been too preoccupied and then tired by other activities in the evenings to write my blog, instead I have been reading The Hunger Games saga and writing up a kind of synopsis to my film project idea thing I had many moons (or 4) ago lol 

 Getting my Nerd on, writing!

I have also been trying new foods as I was getting bored of the same meals I've been cooking, despite this, my weight loss seems to have hit a brick wall, been up and down and all sorts for the last month now, it's coming off a lot slower than it was! But now that Sprog has been going back to nursery, since last Thursday, I've had the time to start going to the gym again (can't remember the last time I went.... Woops...) and also catch up on housework! I really struggle to stay completely on top, besides doing the bare minimum when Sprog's at home all day, as she wants me to spend all the time with her playing, and I start something, then she grabs my hand and says "come on Mummy!" and I say I can't and then I feel bad so I go join in with her for a few minutes, then try to get back to it, then it's back and forth all day, then I'm exhausted and poor Sprog is fed up! :( 

 Slimming World Healthy Extra pancakes, made with wheaty biscuits...

 Felt really good this day, lost 2lbs for that week!

 Latest health fad is fruit infused water! I refill this at least once a day, plus have other drinks too :)

We've had some lovely mini adventures though! One day after SW for instance, we went to the park then to The Waterfall (as Sprog calls it, it's actually a Spoonies in a business and leisure park, where there's a fountain and a couple of little waterfalls, and ducks!) for some lunch instead of straight home, for a change! Then one Saturday, there were all Princess Mum and Daughter activities going on in the shopping centre in town; we met Princess Rosie and had our picture taken with her, then we stood in front of a magic mirror to choose a magical outfit (it was basically a giant camera screen thing that superimposed clothes on us!). Another Saturday, there was a lady doing face painting in town centre, Sprog wanted to be a green butterfly! The lady twisted her arm in to having a couple of other colours too! Teehee I think she's the most beautiful butterfly ever :D

My beautiful butterfly :')

Princesses Sprog, Mummy and Rosie! :D

Having fun in the park!

The duckies at The Waterfall! :)

My Scentsy business has also slowed down a bit, well until a couple of weeks ago anyways when a fabulous friend C booked a party with me! It's this coming Friday! Hooray!!! I have had one or two other orders, but haven't submitted as it's £9 shipping, and split between 2 customers is a bit much :( if I get £150 of orders, shipping is free!

So a couple of weeks ago, it was also Mother's Day, and being the single mummy that I am, my mum has taken it upon herself over the last few years to buy me a gift on Sprog's behalf, however, this year was different! And owing to how well things have been going on handovers, and in general terms, Sprog and her daddy bought me a lovely humungous card and prezzie (and ridiculously huge sized gift bag!) :D I'm a little bit nervous (and maybe teensy bit excited too) as Sprog will be having her first sleepover at her nana's house with her daddy on Friday! She's dead excited, and I'm sure she'll have an absolute whale of a time, but I am going to miss her an insane amount! Especially as it's our first night apart, aside from the 4 nights in 2.5 years where she's stayed with the rents! I'll get her back Saturday though, and I have a friend from uni staying the weekend too, so I won't be home totally alone, which is nice! :)

 My Mother's Day gifts ^_^

Gonna refer back to the first section of this post, about going to the gym, now that Sprog is settled in to her new nursery, and still seeing her daddy every Tuesday, I have no excuse to not go to the gym (or pool) at least twice a week! I will be alternating between 2 and 3 workouts a week, of which one of my days is a Wednesday when I have weigh ins- the weeks where I work out 3 times a week, I will go weigh in, then hit the gym, the other weeks I will stay to the IMAGE therapy meetings after I've weighed! :) Also this week, as Sprog is in nursery or with daddy for 6 days, I have challenged myself to work out 4 times this week! I've been 2 days this week so far (Mon and today) will skip gym tomorrow to stay to SW meeting, then gym Thur and Fri, and if possible, even Saturday morning too! I WILL fit size 10-12 clothes before the year is out!!!!

Oooh another new thing is that F and I both enrolled on an online Level 2 Makeup Artistry course! I'll keep you updated on that! And I just today applied to a vlogging thing for mums... Hehe soooo much going on! :D

I shall leave it there now, as time is getting on, and we need to be up early to take Sprog to her first full day at nursery tomorrow for 8! Thankfully, it's a 5 minute walk away, not like the 20 minute bus ride that had to be caught an hour before nursery starts like how it used to be....! Here's another nice pic of Sprog and me, I love this one :')

 Best Friiieeeeeennnndddsssss :'D

Thanks for reading! I'll try not to leave it so long again this time..... Hehehe xXx

Lazy Days Pass in a Haze

Aha it rhymes x'D oh god I'm so easily pleased, it's tragic haha

A quick update, after a couple of stern worded emails to Sprog's nursery (amidst a couple of argumentative replies! The bloody cheek!), they accepted that I wasn't going to give in to more than 4 weeks' notice, so she now finishes at that nursery on 19th March (she tried to change it to 5 weeks (27th March) being the end of term AFTER stating they're happy to accept 19th as her end date!)

Well, since the Rents got back Friday, we got dropped home by mummy, then I think everyone in the world had an early night! God we were knackered! Lol Saturday was spent in spells of recumbency! Yet even so, the kitchen was somehow cleaned and a couple of others chores were completed. I still felt pretty lousy for being lazy, I always do after the way my laziness spiralled out of control, along with my mood and emotions and everything else for that matter (I refer you to this and this...). Yet, I need to remember how productive I have been the last few days, as I did also stay up until 1am Sunday morning uploading things to eBay and Gumtree (feel free to browse and maybe even purchase, it's the same items on both sites!).

Feeling a little knackered (Just a bit....) and slow and in dire need of coffee, I eventually get up out of bed, as dragged by Sprog! To be fair, she did let me snooze for half an hour while she played a little bit! Can't complain, though it was only 8 when I got up..... 9 would have been much more alleviating.... Just saying, Sprog.... I can read this to her..... Lol such a shame really, I so had my heart set on blitzing my whole flat on Sunday..... Mind you, I still managed to get a fair bit done, despite it all.... Well I hoovered and moved some mess around my room x'D haha I need to get my act together so bad Dx lol I'm getting there now to be fair! Had a lovely day spending quality time with Sprog though! Thanks to Vicky @ SMA creating the #SomethingFun hashtag for Lent, we did lots of lovely things, such as snuggles on the sofa watching tv and dvds, we had a little tea party for lunch, we played with some play dough, and played with some jigsaws!

 Twigs in Tree Fu Tom is voiced by David Tennant.... *swoooon*

Sprog was doing some sort of stretching whilst eating an apple, we're very health conscious here.... Whilst sat on the sofa..... ;-)

 I'm so so proud of this chick, she just finished this jigsaw with a tiny bit of help from me! :')

 A spot of crafty play dough, I made some sweetcorn! x'D

 Posh chicken sandwiches and salad for out tea party lunch, served on my special serving plate!

 The cheeky monkey nicked one of my sammiches after eating all of her own while I went to make the tea quickly!!! I'm still chuckling while I write this x'D

 Sprog did these little bits all on her own after lunch while I was cleaning up!!!! :')

Had a splendid relaxing evening last night though, as I finally made myself start reading The Hunger Games! I knew I would love it, I've missed reading so much! I haven't sat and read a novel since I was at uni in like 1st year! Or maybe the summer between 2nd and 3rd year, I can't remember.... Lol either way, it's been a very long time! One thing I will comment though is that I hope the author changed the editor, there's so many spelling and grammatical errors! I should become an editor I think..... Not that my writing is much better though. x'D lol

However, I still ended up staying up until midnight! I felt once again rather groggy this morning..... I must say though, even the last week, I've managed to not be very snappy and grumpy in the mornings anymore like I used to be! I used to be such a dragon last year after I stayed up until really late! I will most certainly going to bed as soon as I've finished writing this though, I'm knackered! Still, had another splendid day with Sprog, I didn't take her nursery today, after the fiasco and drama of last week... Ha! Did some more tea party ness and sofa tv snuggles hehe then we just played with her toys for a bit, hid under the duvet and stuff, was fun :) despite all the attention, she still couldn't get over the fact I needed to cook dinner so couldn't be glued to her still.... Again. :\ She was very tired though! Yet she still made a bit of a fuss going to bed! Oh gosh, last night she was a right cow, I got royally toddler'd!!! Lol

Well tomorrow is Tuesday, we know what that means, right? I love that Sprog sees her dad on Tuesdays, I can say "see you next Tuesday", or.... "c u next Tuesday"...... Teeheeheehee x'D we don't have to meet him until 1ish tomorrow now though as he has to go to an antenatal appointment with his fiancee...... I'll leave you with that one..... =] of which I think the plan is for me to hang out and go cinema to see Shaun The Sheep with him and Sprog..... Of course I'll keep you updated! Lol x'D lol consorting with the enemy hahaha

Anywho, I really must go to bed now! I'm yawning my head off, I'll end up looking like the Canadians from South Park..... I'm so glad there are apparently no Canadians that seem to read my blog...... Lol 

Nighty night xxxx

P.S. Oh, here's my nails by my friend F =]

F airbrushing my nails! It's a fairly new experience for both of us!

 Et voila! :')

Can't Think Of A Good Title...

Wow what a BUSY week it has been! I'm exhausted! It's been a fabulous week though, so I'm not really complaining! :D hehe

So after Monday, Tuesday was a little bit of a mad rush, as dropped Sprog with her dad, then went to my friend's house (we'll call her F) as she needed to do her nail art coursework on me (I'm a model! LOL!!!) and she wanted to see my Scentsty products (shameless plug teehee). Straight from picking Sprog back up, we went to The Rents' house for dinner and to take over charge of the house for a few days with my sister. My dad took some paintings to the Red Barn gallery in Penrith as they are exhibiting his work for the whole of March and April! :D

Wednesday was an absolutely fabulous day! I lost 2.5lbs at SW this week, and I'm absolutely chuffed! :') then so the antics began! The gorgeous Lullsbud came to visit with her lovely little sprog, and we had the biggest binge on food ever :S woopsie, we went for McDonalds for lunch, then we went cinema to see Peppa Pig and the Golden Boots, we both had nachos as well as our Sprogs' popcorn..... woops..... hehehe then we came back to my Rents' house, and they ended up staying for dinner and we had Pizza Hut Dx hehe

Needless to say, I've felt pretty shit since then.....

Yesterday was very tiring, we had to wake up at Sparrow's fart to take Sprog to nursery, then F picked me up to go back to hers for more nail work :D my nails look lush, she used her airbrush for almost the first time ever, and I've never had airbrushed nails before! Not gonna lie, the pink and black fade looks lush! :D thanks again F! ^_^

When I picked Sprog up, I went and spoke to the admin lady (should have spoke to management) to verbally give Sprog's notice in, to be told it's 3 months notice, not 4 weeks like the FIS had told me!!! Went straight on the phone to FIS, who rang the nursery manager who said it changed from 4 weeks to 3 months for funded placements by way of a signed newsletter! Also, when I've picked Sprog up twice this week, she's been out to play in the rain!!?! She's just got over a cold and comjunctivitis virus!!! So to say the least, even if it means she can't start a new nursery until the spring, she sure as hell won't be going back to her current nursery for very long.....

As for my first Scentsy order, we managed to rack up a bill of £350!!!! That's immense! Looking froward to receiving that order...... My poor little flat will be even more full of boxes.... I must start listing crap on ebay....

Well, I'd better go do some tidying before the rents get back..... Hehehe

Over and out xXx
 

The Phoenix Doth Rise!

Ok! So last time, a brief intro, I felt pretty shit about a few things (see here....), then the next day, things made a quick turn around, mum likes my Scentsy stuff and has put an order in, and have since felt very positive (see here.....)!

So since Thursday (my last post!), life has been pretty hectic! I rearranged my party for the Saturday, so spent the Friday baking a truck load of cake and cupcakes (Brooklyn Blackout cakes as recreated by Hummingbird High and some banana cupcakes with dark chocolate ganache). By some work of a miracle, I have hardly touched any of this stuff (emphasis on hardly....) but to blow my own trumpet, they were a bit tasty..... Hehe :-p I was pretty much, to put it nicely, patting my shanties about the party, after the dismal flops that had happened thrice previously..... I was up until 1am Saturday morning, baking.... My aunt had rung the night before to say she wasn't going to be able to make it again, as she'd had so much to deal with, which she had! But still, to say the least, I was quite stressed and feeling very doubtful!

Then we come to Saturday, some how, I was up at 8ish, trying to get all final prep done in terms of a bit of housework, etc (after copious amounts of coffee....). All morning I was feeling pretty crap really, I didn't know who was definitely coming, I still hadn't had a great deal of responses from anyone on Facebook, and my phone was still at my parent's house. Thankfully, mum rang that morning so agreed to bring my phone round before they went food shopping, yet still didn't get many definitive answers from anyone! But then my day started getting better and better, or comparatively so! My aunt rang and confirmed her attendance after all! She arrived early to help me finish set up and to also keep Sprog in check, I managed to whip round the shop to pick up extra things for icing the cakes, then guests began arriving! Three of my neighbours were first (of course!), then about 45 minutes later, one of my mum's friends arrived! I honestly wasn't expecting her! Then about half an hour later still, my best guy mate and his girlfriend turned up! So so happy!

[Shameless plug of my business here!]

I know I can always count on this mate, he's been there during some really hard times when others have been really shit! Especially on my birthdays! Remember when he took Sprog and me shopping for party food??

Saturday night was fabulous! I then also had another friend visit after Sprog had gone to bed, we spent the evening drinking our usual tipple- a brew! Watching Burke & Hare, smelling Scentsy, and then doing our nails! x'D love it!

 Yes..... That is pink and glittery.... I am not ashamed!!!!

Sunday was spent practically in recumbency..... What?? I deserved it!!!! Hehe 

All in all, since the party, I have ended up accumulating £250 worth of orders, and still counting!!! I'm so excited :') hehe

Today, Sprog went back to nursery after a long time spent away with conjunctivitis (eurgh!), loved spending all that time with her though! And then after mum and I picked her up from nursery in town, we went to view a new nursery which is just over the road from me! And instantly I decided I'm going to start sending her there! :)

My finale piece of excitement today was when I found a really old DVD of my school show in year 10! And it works in my laptop!!! So excited :') Is it a bit sad I'm watching it right now.....? x'D love it haha I played Audrey.... We did Little Shop of Horrors :') 

My next mission is to find out how to rip the disk so I can keep it safe on my hard drive, and share with anyone who cares to see it x'D 

Getting right in to this blogging malarkey now, all thanks to Vicky! =D thanks love =D also joined a blog hop thanks to her ^_^ 

Nighty night xXx

From The Ashes

By some work of a miracle, not only have I somehow managed to come bouncing back, but I've also thenceforth been spring-boarded forward! 

After my rather miserable entry last night, I found that my film project idea that I had quite a few months ago now could actually go ahead in to production! Also had a couple extra ideas for tweaks and such like, but still very much in need of work! All it needs is a little help from some friends....

Also had a couple of heart to hearts with a few good friends <3 <3 <3

During one said heart to heart, my dad rang to let me know that I didn't need to stay over tonight to watch Loki tomorrow! I love Loki to bits, but I can't even begin to explain the immense amount of relief I felt! Weight lifted! Still went round for dinner though, and had a most splendid evening! The male sibling even showed up (and went and sat in the dog house..... teehee x'D). When mummy dropped us home, she came up for a quick coffee, and showed her what Scentsy is about, and she was totally won over when she saw that "it's not just candles"! She sniffed her way through my tester pots and found one she really liked, saw a couple of warmers she likes and smelt my laundry that I'd used my Washer Whiffs in, and ordered one of each! :') And after she quizzed me on how the business and financial side of it works as well, she was quite happy for me that I've signed up for it :'D I'm so excited! Hehehe

Also today, I've had a pretty nice day with Sprog, got a bit of housework done whilst also spending lots of time having cuddles and snuggles on the sofa, on the whole quite a nondescript, unremarkable day, but highly pleasant all the same! 

 Sprog's antics today.....

Will be going to bed in a much better mood tonight than I have for nearly the last week! :) 

Nighty night xXx

Back To The Future.....

Ok, so I joined Scentsy last Monday- firstly, I absolutely LOVE the products! The fragrances smell absolutely devine! And the warmer units or gorgeous and ornamental! ^_^ I love the way they work as well, I'm a total home fragrance convert, I'm never buying a scented candle EVER again! And I have had some real interest in the products, from people who I hope will become my lovely clients!

Of course, launching any business venture is very tough! And so I seem to have forgotten about the fact that I seem to be capable of suffering from social anxiety..... Organise a launch party! BAM!!! BAM BAM BAM!!!! I'm really struggling again! Organising people can be challenging at the best of times, and I just don't seem to have a knack for it, I honestly don't know what it is! Bad judgement of when people will be free? The way I've written the event on Facebook and stuff? Not advertised it as exciting enough? Or maybe *social anxiety hits....* maybe people hate you, you're annoying, you moan too much, you're boring, I could go on and on..... 

I wish I had the guts to say to people I don't give a shit, to feel like I don't care as much as I do... But I can't. I can't bare to think I've upset someone and made them feel as low and unwanted as much as I've felt! I can't do it, even if I dislike someone, I still can't tell them to do one! Maybe that does make me false, makes me exactly like the people that I've had to force myself to move on from, yet continuing to be a hypocrite myself? 

Another thing that has brought me to write this post tonight is some thing that have been said to me about my parenting skills recently, telling me I need to be more strict, stop being so polite and patient, to basically "shut her down". But again, I can't do it. I shudder to think that she'll grow up to be exactly like me, unable to voice herself when she needs to stand up for herself, or when she needs to make a point in disagreement, but to instead stand there quietly and feel "shut down", feeling like she's not allowed to argue back, maybe even go and sit somewhere by herself, in her room, crying alone. Feeling like she's not allowed to be herself because she feels too self conscious that she's being "too weird", or feel like other peoples' opinions have to rule the way she behaves. Of course there are ways to behave in particular places etc, but it's when she's around peers in what should be a relaxed environment; I hope that she can feel confident enough to be herself, that she doesn't have to pretend to be someone or something else, just to please everyone else.

*sigh* so I also put on half a pound this week in SW, which didn't come as much surprise, seeing as I probably haven't eaten enough good stuff this week, and then on Monday I ate all but 1 cookie from a pack of bake-at-home Betty Crocker chocolate chip cookies.... And yet here I am right now, sat writing a whingey blog post whilst begging a friend to come round and bring some ice cream to eat with a bag of Cadbury's Marvellous Creations mixture with Oreos....

Well, I'm gonna go now, I've gone on enough, hopefully next time I'll have nicer things to report (such as my final attempt of a launch party on Saturday afternoon actually going well.....) lol I know, I can dream! x'D 

[Edit in] Many thanks to Vicky at Single Mother Ahoy for sharing my posts! Check her blog, she's a pro!

Laterz, haterz lol

xXx

Swings And Roundabouts

OMG I know! It's a revelation! Another post already :-O hehehe

It's been a rather busy since Thursday when I last posted!

Sprog and I went to stay at the Rent's house Thursday after a painfully lazy day indoors as we were needed to look after Loki the puppy from early on Friday morning while Dad was round Nan's doing some decorating all day :) Loki is absolutely gorgeous,and so funny, and such a typical puppy :') very naughty! Hahahaha bless him :') we got to have a naughty McDonalds for dinner on Friday night too, as the Rents came back late :p teehee 

Friday night I did my food shop online, and bought the whole of Asda! And had it delivered too! Not sure how I fit it all in my kitchen though.....

So we came home after a maybe slightly uncomfortable albeit enjoyable 2 nights away (sooooo glad to be back in my own bed last night!) to remember that I'd left my rucksack at the Rent's house x_X mnngghhhh thankfully I don't desperately need anything in there, well.... except maybe my bank cards.... lol although the Rents did buy us a couple of lovely bright pink plastic drawer units to sort out Sprog's ridiculously overflowing toybox! I filled an entire black bag of her old toys today, and shall be flogging them on eBay soon..... :) hehehe look for my eBay and Facebook selling pages entitled Selling Sprogs Stuff ^_^

So that brings us to today! My lovely Aunty J and Uncle A gave me their big tv today so I don't have to use the dismally small thing my parents lent me (don't get me wrong, I am still immensely grateful! I'm just gutted I couldn't afford to buy myself one!) Just got to wait for it to be set up on either the wall or a stand now..... :) hehe eeee can't wait ^_^ I also spent the whole day sorting bits out, mainly Sprog's toys!!! Although her toybox is still full, but of just teddies!!!! Bwaaaa Dx and now with the "new" TV, I want to have another big move around of the lounge! That's twice in 6 months now! Crazy stuff!

Well, as the time is now getting on and I think I've rambled myself out, I'm off for a nice shath (bath shower type thing...... basically a shower sat in the tub as I have to make do with the shower attachment which doesn't go upwards....) #firstworldproblems..... hehehe

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Revelations and Celebrations..... Kind Of..... :)

Wow, another post so soon?! Check me out! Lol

Well since my last post, which was on..... Sunday.....? Maybe? A few kind of exciting things have happened! Firstly, after working out how to work out the financial side of it, I've decided I'm going to finally become a Scentsy consultant :D I can't wait to buy my Consultant's Kit :') then on Monday whilst Sprog was at nursery, I went to visit my nan and we sat and did a little bit of training, we gave each other a bit of a reading, and she told me she was being told to tell me to "grow a pair" lol so I did! For once! The next day on Tuesday, I finally sprouted a rather bulbous pair and spoke to Sprog's dad over a handover coffee about how I want to move away to Great Yarmouth/Caister, and not only did he agree and approve of it, he's fully and completely supportive of this move! So much so, he said he wants to move away with his new-ish gf and their new baby as he doesn't want to bring a child up in this area! :D

Also on Monday, I saw that there is a new tea room about to open up in town, which had an ad in the window for full and part time vacancies, so, naturally, I applied, and then had an interview on Tuesday! Unfortunately I did't get the job, but after working out all the finances and implications of working whilst Sprog is at nursery and with her dad, on top of being a Scentsy consultant, well basically I'd be stupid not to! I'd be so much better off financially, and I'll also have something extra to do! So I then went and applied for a couple of other jobs too! Wish me luck! ^_^ hehe

Lastly, yesterday after Slimming World (I gained half a pound, boooo!!!), Sprog and I went off to visit our dear friends Lullsbud (follow her, she's lovely!) and her gorgeous little one at their new home in Stevenage ^_^ thanks for a lovely day guys ^_^ <3 xxxx We also both decided that we're going to have a bash at vlogging too! On top of our blogs hehe 

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A New Lease of Life!

I know..... It's been a year, it's lousy! And it wasn't a great year, let's be honest! So after my melt down last March, I sought proper help, went to CBT, also enjoyed a smashing holiday to Caister-on-Sea with Lullsbud and her sprog-

I also discovered and rediscovered a lot of things about myself over the year too; firstly I need to remember I'm an adult and I AM allowed to stand on my own two feet, make my own decisions and don't need to ask permission from parentals.... hehe. I also learnt that not everyone you hang out with (or try to...) is really your friend..... even if they do have a lot in common.....

I turned 25, and attempted to throw a party...... only my good friends turned up! If you're reading this, you lovely people know who you are! I was also signed off/discharged from CBT that week too, which was nice! :)

This pic is of our roadtrip when a good friend took Sprog and me out for the day to buy my party food and went for lunch :) and he bought me my birthday cake :'D xxx


Sprog turned 2! OMG!!!! I also threw a party for her too, again only good friends turned up!!! This iced the cake for me with regards to point number 2 above.....

I can't forget to mention the beautiful wedding I had the privilege and pleasure to attend in June, of the Bains! :') ovbs they had a Disney theme seeing as Mrs Bain is slightly obsessed hehehe :') it was a wonderful day and got to meet some wonderful people!

 For the first time in months I felt slimmer and pretty, and had a lovely day with my own princess :) thanks again for inviting us, Mr and Mrs Bain ^_^

In light of the lesson of learning who my real friends were, and finding I still wasn't socialising all that much, I decided to create my own group just for single parents in West London, in late September, and I'm so glad I did as I've made so many lovely new friends who all understand each other better! It's amazing how much difference marital status makes your friendships! Shocking and almost appalling I would say...... Though of course that is purely just my personal opinion! Hehe

Anywho!!! Less negativity! I've met some lovely fellow mummies through my group, and ended up going here with one of them with her 2 girls! Twas a splendid day!

The same week as going here, my mum sent me a shocker of a text! Look who joined our crazy family!

Isn't he gorgeous??!? This is Loki, he's a Jack Russel, and he's now about 17 weeks old I'll hazard a guess at, in this pic he was only 7 weeks old and absolutely tiny! :')


 Another thing I discovered about myself is that I have inherited clairvoyant abilities from my nanny and have since been learning to develop them through her love and guidance :) she's training me up basically hehe the weird and scary thing is how strong and quick my abilities started to come through as soon as I started! Looking forward to being able to help people properly :)

Despite my emotional hardships of the year, I have somehow managed to achieve two great things, firstly I stopped biting my nails for Lent and managed to carry it on, I now have gorgeous sexy talons! ;-) hehehe secondly, on October 7th, I bit the bullet and joined Slimming World after my mum suggested it, which she said just ignore what dad says about it.... well I can proudly say that since that day, I have lost 1st 2.5lbs and already I am feeling absolutely fabulous! :D

 This first pic was at another wedding in 2013, but my weight wasn't much different to when I joined SW!
 

This was me 2 weeks ago, 1st 2.5lbs later! Last week I maintained my weight as Sprog and I defeated a cold each, and Sprog had a minor case of conjunctivitis, this healthy eating plan is obviously helping us both from the inside out! :) all those yummy fruits and veggies ^_^

Another minor victory for me is eventually forming a better cooperative relationship with Sprog's father, after we both separately had to attend a SPIP (Separated Parents' Information Programme)..... Well despite my cynicism, it did actually prove to be helpful after we'd both attended our sessions! So far, things are a lot calmer! And I'm happy :)

Well that was my year in a rather big nut shell.... maybe like a coconut..... and I don't like coconuts, and I didn't like 2014 all that much! I will look back on it with relief that I survived and came out a lot stronger and wiser than when I went in! To celebrate the end of the year and welcome in 2015, I got to go to a Fabulous (with a capital FABULOUS) New Year party at the Holiday Inn hotel, it had a Las Vegas theme, with show girls, roulette wheel and everything, dress to impress..... So I did.....

 Happy New Year

Here's to an awesome 2015!